Watching the game

The Mundobasket final. Watching it, because I’m in Greece and Greece is playing. Focusing and not focusing on it. And then, the adverts. And a voice. A deep voice, strong. A voice not too familiar, but heard sometime before… Then the lyrics become clear…

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that’s real

It is this that makes me look at the television. There’s an advert, athletes, action. Something is being sold, but I don’t care - it’s the voice, the words.

A little later, I google it. Johnny Cash. I read the entire lyrics.

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that’s real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar’s chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

That’s all. It was nice. So nice to have discovered this. I want to find the mp3. Listen to it in full. Don’t know a thing about Johnny Cash.

  

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  1. Comment by Perry | 2006/09/03 at 09:31:02Quote

    Kathryn, in a way, I envy you in that you can still “discover” Johnny Cash (a.k.a. “The man in black”). I know you will enjoy his music and it is widely available and easy to find. The song you heard was written when he was near death and there is an accompanying video.

    Some trivia: Johnny Cash co-starred in a Columbo episode (a TV show from the 1970s) where he turned in a wonderful acting performance and sang a few songs as well.

    “Swan Song” (1973)
    http://www.columbo-site.freeuk.com/sea3.htm

  2. Comment by kathryn | 2006/09/03 at 10:31:56Quote

    Hi Perry, thanks for the trivia! Shall also check out the video, which sounds quite intriguing. So he wrote this tune when he was near death? It does sound so full and tired and wise and done.

  3. Comment by Perry | 2006/09/03 at 17:42:15Quote

    Kathryn, that song and video show someone who faced death with strength, dignity, and with the courage of his art. Very inspiring. Other songs of his that I like are “I Walk The Line” (used in a GAP commercial but I don’t let that ruin it for me), “Ring of Fire,” “Sunday Morning Coming Down,” and a fun little song that he sang with his wife: “Jackson.” If you have iTunes you can head over the iTunes store and listen to some samples of these and others to see what you think.

  4. Comment by Perry | 2006/09/03 at 19:31:36Quote

    I said previously, “used in a GAP commercial”

    Maybe it was a Levi’s commercial. Can’t recall now.

  5. Comment by kathryn | 2006/09/04 at 05:10:17Quote

    I don’t use iTunes, but shall see what I can find via Last.fm. Thanks again!

  6. Comment by Anne | 2006/09/04 at 19:05:24Quote

    It is a beautiful song. Given more poignancy by his death.

    However, I have to inform you that it was written by Trent Reznor of Nine Inch Nails. It is on their ” Downward Spiral ” album of 1994.

  7. Comment by kathryn | 2006/09/05 at 02:10:33Quote

    Oh! Must find that version! Thanks, Anne.

  8. Comment by Perry | 2006/09/05 at 13:35:49Quote

    Anne, thanks for the info. I did not know that either. It just seemed to me that Cash wrote it (given his state of deterioration at the time). Anyway, always glad to be corrected as I often get the particulars wrong. ;-)

  9. Col
    Comment by Col | 2006/09/12 at 03:01:45Quote

    Hiya

    That version of ‘Hurt’ is superb, isn’t it? You must hunt out the video, which is very moving - both his wife and he died within a few months of making it. I’m a newbie to Cash’s music too but what I’ve heard so far is v good.

  10. Comment by kathryn | 2006/09/12 at 10:51:14Quote

    Hi Col! Yes, I did finally track down that video and yes it really is very moving.


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